Second week of classes and I'm already feeling stressed. Which is maybe the wrong for it. Anxious? Worried? Hard to say. I do have two presentations already, and I don't ever like presentations, so that could be it. But it may not have a source. It's only a persistent, low-grade, gnawing ache in my gut.

Being here again is wonderful, but terrifying, and less wonderful than it could be because all summer I only wanted to be here and expectations are seldom realized. There are a great number of things to be happy about - I like all of my classes, it's nice to be learning again, my room is beautiful (and much-admired), I have a good library schedule and the best shelving area ever. Downtown Northampton's still there. The campus is green and gorgeous. The humidity broke today. Everyone I missed is here again.

I am drinking rather too much, but that is neither here nor there. And too much is relative. I am probably not drinking anywhere near as much as the average college student, and I am legal. But Paxil, I have found, really does enhance the effects of alcohol. Which means I'm a cheap drunk, but also that *two drinks* can leave me feeling pretty shitty after.

But. My four day weekend is over. I have to say, having classes only three days a week is more disorienting than anything else.