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Dear lord today was insane, which was only the crowning culmination of a fairly insane week and a prelude to at least two more equally insane weeks. Since I'd rather be busy at work than twiddling my thumbs with nothing to do, I'm not complaining. I suspect I am still in the infatuation stage with my job and my agency, but I am giving such serious consideration to deferring law school and doing this for another year. I need to deal with law school eventually, but it is just such a fucking commitment, financially speaking, and I really just need a clearer idea of exactly what I want to do with my life before I'll feel okay making that commitment. Maybe I'll know at the end of the year, but if not, I want other options.
Besides being poor is FUN and I need to PRACTICE PRACTICE! Since I'll be poor FOREVER and all, at least right now I get to feel RIGHTEOUS about my poverty! I am so good about my budget though, I am a creditor's dream, which is probably why I get so much junk mail. All it takes is subsistence on food that comes from cans. And feeling guilty about every dollar I spend. OK, I take it back. Being poor sucks. So do batterers and rapists and misogynist judges and most social services and bad car karma and food that comes from cans and Will & Grace episodes that tease you with Will and Dylan McDermott and then pull the same crap they always pull for fear of upsetting the delicate sensibilities of wimpy "oh-I'm-so-openminded-I-watch-Will&Grace-gays-are-fine-just-don't-let-them-youknow-kiss-or-do-anything-remotely-nonstraight-where-I-might-see-it" audiences and Republicans and partial birth abortion bans and made for tv movies glorifying war and the ONE TIME it turned out all right for someone over there nevermind the 379 (so far) us soldiers for whom it DIDN'T, and really, being poor isn't all THAT bad, so.
Besides being poor is FUN and I need to PRACTICE PRACTICE! Since I'll be poor FOREVER and all, at least right now I get to feel RIGHTEOUS about my poverty! I am so good about my budget though, I am a creditor's dream, which is probably why I get so much junk mail. All it takes is subsistence on food that comes from cans. And feeling guilty about every dollar I spend. OK, I take it back. Being poor sucks. So do batterers and rapists and misogynist judges and most social services and bad car karma and food that comes from cans and Will & Grace episodes that tease you with Will and Dylan McDermott and then pull the same crap they always pull for fear of upsetting the delicate sensibilities of wimpy "oh-I'm-so-openminded-I-watch-Will&Grace-gays-are-fine-just-don't-let-them-youknow-kiss-or-do-anything-remotely-nonstraight-where-I-might-see-it" audiences and Republicans and partial birth abortion bans and made for tv movies glorifying war and the ONE TIME it turned out all right for someone over there nevermind the 379 (so far) us soldiers for whom it DIDN'T, and really, being poor isn't all THAT bad, so.