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omg this is my brain on LAW SCHOOL. unpretty.
admin today was just - ah ha ha ha. I can't even, I wish I could explain how ridiculous it was, and how little I care. (I realized saturday, everything I know about administrative law I have entirely taught myself. and I don't particularly feel like rewarding his awful teaching with a good exam. which is really irrational but irrationality is what he has driven me to. there would be days in class where I'd almost start crying because I'd done the reading and it had made sense and then he'd open his mouth and turn it all into nonsensical gibberish, no matter how hard I'd try to follow what he was saying, but he was just the textbook example of an intelligent person who SHOULD NEVER EVER TEACH.) everyone left the exam either laughing or crying and in either case for the same reason, so this time the curve is going to mean, how much do I suck as compared with how much everyone else sucks?
and I am so tired and so overcaffeinated. I've had an omnipresent hand-tremor for about five days now which I imagine is not good. and the thing is I keep, like, procrastinating. compared to the two exam periods I had last year this one is, on paper, so much better; but in the end it's all the same, sustained stress and lack of sleep and fall semester's worse because when I start the substantial studying it's barely December and by the time I'm done it's, like, four days before christmas, and I have NO IDEA where all that time went, which is creepy. I have immigration on wednesday, and then I'm going to sleep until friday. and except for outlining I haven't even started studying and so what am I doing? writing this.
admin today was just - ah ha ha ha. I can't even, I wish I could explain how ridiculous it was, and how little I care. (I realized saturday, everything I know about administrative law I have entirely taught myself. and I don't particularly feel like rewarding his awful teaching with a good exam. which is really irrational but irrationality is what he has driven me to. there would be days in class where I'd almost start crying because I'd done the reading and it had made sense and then he'd open his mouth and turn it all into nonsensical gibberish, no matter how hard I'd try to follow what he was saying, but he was just the textbook example of an intelligent person who SHOULD NEVER EVER TEACH.) everyone left the exam either laughing or crying and in either case for the same reason, so this time the curve is going to mean, how much do I suck as compared with how much everyone else sucks?
and I am so tired and so overcaffeinated. I've had an omnipresent hand-tremor for about five days now which I imagine is not good. and the thing is I keep, like, procrastinating. compared to the two exam periods I had last year this one is, on paper, so much better; but in the end it's all the same, sustained stress and lack of sleep and fall semester's worse because when I start the substantial studying it's barely December and by the time I'm done it's, like, four days before christmas, and I have NO IDEA where all that time went, which is creepy. I have immigration on wednesday, and then I'm going to sleep until friday. and except for outlining I haven't even started studying and so what am I doing? writing this.
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