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they're closing every hour
Everyone wants a piece of my remaining time here, and I just don't have the heart to say no to anyone. Even though all I WANT is to be left ALONE.
Alone. Alone. How I hate that word sometimes. How I love it. Right now I'm in lust with it.
Alonealonealonealonealonealone.
Getting bloodied a week early means, at least, less blood and less pain. I don't know if the trade-off is worth it. Not that my hormones care how I feel about it either way. They've always done whatever the hell they feel like.
Four days. I go back in four days. I have a very nice television with which I can feed my addiction. I have many beautiful healthy plant-children. I have a new rug. One day I may even have those nice posters I ordered weeks ago.
I just want to hide in that new single of mine and let the rest of the world fall away.
Goodbye, world.
Alone. Alone. How I hate that word sometimes. How I love it. Right now I'm in lust with it.
Alonealonealonealonealonealone.
Getting bloodied a week early means, at least, less blood and less pain. I don't know if the trade-off is worth it. Not that my hormones care how I feel about it either way. They've always done whatever the hell they feel like.
Four days. I go back in four days. I have a very nice television with which I can feed my addiction. I have many beautiful healthy plant-children. I have a new rug. One day I may even have those nice posters I ordered weeks ago.
I just want to hide in that new single of mine and let the rest of the world fall away.
Goodbye, world.