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I'm definitely sick. My throat hurt too much to sleep; once sleep did come it was fitful, and I woke up and promptly longed for a quick death. About two hours ago my throat suddenly stopped hurting but other discomforts have arisen to compensate. I've also been running a fever; not delerium-level or anything but just enough to alternate between shaking and sweating and for the world to have a vague fog about it.
I am like the worst worst WORST sick person ever; as we can see I take grim delight in cataloging symptoms and then demanding pity. I think longingly of earlier, healthier days; I am unable to imagine they will ever return. My worst fear, we're talking the one thing that is capable of giving me genuine racing-heart light-headed panic attacks, is of chronic pain. It's why I freak out so much over every migraine even though I know logically I'm lucky, they're infrequent and easily dealt with; it's the fear that one day they won't be, and it's harder to be rational about that fear when the memory of the migraine pain (incomparable to anything else I've experienced thus far) is still fresh.
Anyway. Subsequent to all of this I have been SO UNPRODUCTIVE although I AM trying. Just also failing. It was grossly hot again today, but I am holding out hope that this is the last of it! Friday is supposed to be a high of only low fifties; I can't wait, my article will be done (crappy, but done) and my mother has promised macaroni and cheese and to watch the new Doctor Who episode with me (she doesn't know it yet, but she'll also be watching the new Battlestar Galactica as well; omg! the premiere last week SO CRAZY INTENSE!). Then there are two whole months left in the semester in which I can do things like work for my actual classes.
Also, buy an iMac! After the fiery death of my other laptop I convinced myself I really could not live without a backup, and the thing I like about getting a Mac is that if it breaks, I just have to drive two miles to the Apple store and have them take care of it. Plus, well, PRETTY. And SHINY. And the specs of the one I'm getting - 2 GHz Intel Core 2 Duo with 1 gig RAM - will make it the fastest computer I've ever owned. That I've used, even. That there are even faster ones out there is beyond my comprehension.
I am like the worst worst WORST sick person ever; as we can see I take grim delight in cataloging symptoms and then demanding pity. I think longingly of earlier, healthier days; I am unable to imagine they will ever return. My worst fear, we're talking the one thing that is capable of giving me genuine racing-heart light-headed panic attacks, is of chronic pain. It's why I freak out so much over every migraine even though I know logically I'm lucky, they're infrequent and easily dealt with; it's the fear that one day they won't be, and it's harder to be rational about that fear when the memory of the migraine pain (incomparable to anything else I've experienced thus far) is still fresh.
Anyway. Subsequent to all of this I have been SO UNPRODUCTIVE although I AM trying. Just also failing. It was grossly hot again today, but I am holding out hope that this is the last of it! Friday is supposed to be a high of only low fifties; I can't wait, my article will be done (crappy, but done) and my mother has promised macaroni and cheese and to watch the new Doctor Who episode with me (she doesn't know it yet, but she'll also be watching the new Battlestar Galactica as well; omg! the premiere last week SO CRAZY INTENSE!). Then there are two whole months left in the semester in which I can do things like work for my actual classes.
Also, buy an iMac! After the fiery death of my other laptop I convinced myself I really could not live without a backup, and the thing I like about getting a Mac is that if it breaks, I just have to drive two miles to the Apple store and have them take care of it. Plus, well, PRETTY. And SHINY. And the specs of the one I'm getting - 2 GHz Intel Core 2 Duo with 1 gig RAM - will make it the fastest computer I've ever owned. That I've used, even. That there are even faster ones out there is beyond my comprehension.
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agree
(Anonymous) 2006-10-11 02:20 am (UTC)(link)no subject
Also, I hadn't seen your new layout; I usually just read your entries on my Friends page. But I like it, especially the picture up top. And if you've had it this way for months and I'm just now noticing, feel free to smack me.