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Last night was, it seems, the night of the insomniacs.
And here I could barely stay awake all day, afternoon, evening, counting down the hours till I could sleep - and when I could, my head had other plans.
In the rational/logical/optimistic part of my mind, I know that next semester can be a wonderful opportunity, if I take it as such. And most of the time, I am able to keep that perspective, and all is good. But last night, in the dark, I was filled with fear and panicky dread.
In the bright morning, I've regained the proper perspective - but I know the fear will come again. Probably stronger. Definitely stronger.
On a related note, I go back to the doctor Tuesday, and it will be time to decide whether to increase my dosage. I'm on 20mg now and doing pretty well, all things considered... but would moving to 30 help even more? Or should I stay at 20? I don't know, I don't know.
Time to go to work, for a few hours, anyway. I like Fridays.
And here I could barely stay awake all day, afternoon, evening, counting down the hours till I could sleep - and when I could, my head had other plans.
In the rational/logical/optimistic part of my mind, I know that next semester can be a wonderful opportunity, if I take it as such. And most of the time, I am able to keep that perspective, and all is good. But last night, in the dark, I was filled with fear and panicky dread.
In the bright morning, I've regained the proper perspective - but I know the fear will come again. Probably stronger. Definitely stronger.
On a related note, I go back to the doctor Tuesday, and it will be time to decide whether to increase my dosage. I'm on 20mg now and doing pretty well, all things considered... but would moving to 30 help even more? Or should I stay at 20? I don't know, I don't know.
Time to go to work, for a few hours, anyway. I like Fridays.