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i see you too clearly. i don't trust myself anymore.
I really want a webcam. I just don't know if I really want to spend $50+ on one.
Joy and I are still talking about Montreal, so I have to keep those potential expenses in mind. And it probably will be expensive once you total up the hotel, alcohol, cover charges, food... but oh, god, I want to go. I want to find a dance club that plays techno so loud and beating in a room that's so dark it all feels like an artificial womb. I'm in the mood to forget who I am, as much as possible.
Sleep these past few nights has been jittery, disjointed, verging towards panic, a lot of sudden fevered wakings. Is it the caffeine? Is it the drugs? Or is it just me?
Same amount of caffeine as always, so it can't be that.
The drugs are supposed to reduce panic, so I very much hope it's not that.
That leaves me. And I am a very likely suspect.
And who knows what dreams I'm breaking free from, then.
Joy and I are still talking about Montreal, so I have to keep those potential expenses in mind. And it probably will be expensive once you total up the hotel, alcohol, cover charges, food... but oh, god, I want to go. I want to find a dance club that plays techno so loud and beating in a room that's so dark it all feels like an artificial womb. I'm in the mood to forget who I am, as much as possible.
Sleep these past few nights has been jittery, disjointed, verging towards panic, a lot of sudden fevered wakings. Is it the caffeine? Is it the drugs? Or is it just me?
Same amount of caffeine as always, so it can't be that.
The drugs are supposed to reduce panic, so I very much hope it's not that.
That leaves me. And I am a very likely suspect.
And who knows what dreams I'm breaking free from, then.