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It is almost time. Oh my god oh my god oh my GOD. I did not see it coming, somehow, though it's been coming quite a while.
I hate packing with the fury of a thousand Pele's.
Having two cars does make things easier, though.
I wish I had my posters. I wish I had my bedspread.
I have definitely reached the peak of my restlessness and am absolutely mad for change. I just don't know if going back to Smith is the change that I want. I feel so anxious to get out of this cycle, to get on with that so-called "real world". As it is I feel suspended in a state of perpetual flux.
But, I have to finish school. I know I do, I know I should, I mostly want to. It's only two years and then the future is mine. It's funny, but I'm not scared of it anymore. Once I couldn't think of anything scarier than life on my own.
But I feel stronger. I feel strong, alive, and whole. I guess this summer did exactly what I hoped it would, and perhaps then some.
It's time to turn my computer off, shut it down and take it apart and pack it away. Who knows when I'll get it back up again, when they'll have the ethernet up and running (oh blessed ethernet!) Hopefully soon.
Until then.
I hate packing with the fury of a thousand Pele's.
Having two cars does make things easier, though.
I wish I had my posters. I wish I had my bedspread.
I have definitely reached the peak of my restlessness and am absolutely mad for change. I just don't know if going back to Smith is the change that I want. I feel so anxious to get out of this cycle, to get on with that so-called "real world". As it is I feel suspended in a state of perpetual flux.
But, I have to finish school. I know I do, I know I should, I mostly want to. It's only two years and then the future is mine. It's funny, but I'm not scared of it anymore. Once I couldn't think of anything scarier than life on my own.
But I feel stronger. I feel strong, alive, and whole. I guess this summer did exactly what I hoped it would, and perhaps then some.
It's time to turn my computer off, shut it down and take it apart and pack it away. Who knows when I'll get it back up again, when they'll have the ethernet up and running (oh blessed ethernet!) Hopefully soon.
Until then.