ivyology: (natasha3)
ivyology ([personal profile] ivyology) wrote2001-09-10 11:08 am

i follow you down till the sound of my voice will haunt you

I've been awake only three hours, showered less than, and I already feel like showering again.

Damn this heat, this humidity. I feel subhuman.

love is all you need

don't you want somebody to love?

i know i could have loved you, but you won't let me

i'm gonna love you till the heavens stop the rain

it's love's illusions i recall - i really don't know love at all

you better find somebody to love...


Love is something I'm not sure I want a part of anymore. I think right now if somebody touched me and meant it even a little, I would break.

Hard, diamond hard I am these days. Somewhere are the soft things that mean so much - the light and the words and the green - but they have been excised, boxed up, and tucked away. They are more fragile than I am; they value their solitude more than I do. They let me look, but not quite touch; others can't even see.

I don't think I understand anything at all. (And I really don't know love at all.)

I think when the heat breaks I will know more. As it is I am a muddled fevered mess. Concentrating in class, however, is easier than it's ever been - tunnel vision at its finest.