i'm on a mission by mistake

[ivyology]

I'm tired. I should sleep more.

I miss everyone today. I don't think anyone misses me.

I feel like a failure. I feel completely worthless.

I want to go home. But where is home, now?

Comments

[meow.livejournal.com]

kristin hersh. swoon.

[chicklet.livejournal.com]

Worthless?! Not even if you tried.

Everyone has a crisis of confidence once in a while. They pass, as yours will. Because (as far as I can tell) you are tremendously clever and gentle and good and eventually you will realize this.

[ladygrey.livejournal.com]

oh stop ! i miss you!!! are you still planning to come to england? i feel like having everyone i know over to see all these things. and have tea, of course, in my orange flat! it's very odd being here, you know. it's like i'm not in real time. but it IS nice not to be at smith, academically speaking. sure i've only had one day of classes, but i don't have any on wednesday or friday, so, yeah, i will stress soon about it, but now it's still a novelty. i feel like i'm doing an undercover research project about how brits live. in a way i am, i guess, making a documentary in my head. i just, i dont know. it's very much like living and actually feeling like nothing matters- everything i do is a choice, the consequences of whatever i choose not having too great of an effect one way or the other. as long as i do all right grade-wise, and dont waste my money, i should be just fine. whatever else i do, is all up to me. sorry i'm rambling here.

anyway, yeah, just thought i'd say hello! have a lovely day!